I paid for you because I wanted you
And you were born into a world where I can buy your body
And own you forever. I regret that
But I don’t regret buying you
My little boy
I heard you cry before I ever saw you
Did you know? I was once small too
Curled into silence, waiting for my mother
She must have trembled to hear me at last
A sound without a face, not yet held but already loved
You were, tiny, cloud-like, trembling
My single pink bald hand encircling your tiny torso
Lifting you to my lips to kiss, irresistibly
You were my little boy
With blue eyes, still learning to be alive
You cried for me like I was your mother
Happy to be deputized as such but at the same time not
Your mother
I am really sorry about this
I fed you with a pipette,
Wiped your behind, bathed you, held you to sleep
If I had birthed you, you would be no closer to my heart
My little boy
You were so young when you became mine
I was so young too
When you are old I will still be young
When you are dead I will still be young
But you will always and forever be
My little boy
